What I think- Nine of Swords. Obviously, I have been thinking far too much and now I have gotten myself all riled up. Maybe I can do something about this and maybe I can’t, but being all twisted emotionally has prevented me from taking actionable steps and has stolen the peace I need if this is just to be. Half of these swords are real and half are just shadows, and I think I have pushed it too far and can no longer tell the difference.
What I feel- Three of Swords. My back hurts. It physically hurts. It will never be fully well again, although sometimes I manage okay with it.
What I do- Lovers. Since I can’t change a thing with my worry and since the physical pain is just a burden I have to bear, I lean into it all. I can’t change anything with my worry, so I lean into the circumstances. I can’t stop my pain so I stop struggling with it. Come, if you will, or go if you will, pain. You are not my enemy.
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What I think- King of Cups. I think I want to learn more astrology, both for my own edification and to add value to the readings I do for others.
What I feel- Sun. I feel great! I snuggle babies all day and I get to bring a sweet one home with me at night. I love this life and I feel blessed to have it. I feel happy and optimistic about the future.
What I do- The World. Do I take up hoop dancing? I have always wanted to do that but I am about as un-graceful as they come and I feel foolish trying.
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What I think- Page of Swords. I think it is better to stay silent in some circumstances, and even though I think that is a good option, I often struggle with exercising it. I have met very few words I didn’t want to say. I think I am naked and vulnerable but the tilt of the hips says I am not too bothered by it.
What I feel- Nine of Wands. I feel defensive, like I need to take a stand. I feel like I need to protect myself and those close to me. I feel like this is “mine” and I won’t let it be harmed. Sometimes I feel like the lone soldier standing between destruction and wholeness.
What I do- Nine of Cups. Whatever, let’s just have a glass of wine or three. Probably due to what I think and feel, I now feel comfortable and safe enough to let my guard down a little bit and I relax with what I feel I have earned. Tonight that is a soak and a tea and a good book, a pat of a puppy, and those are all I really want in life anyway.
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What I think- Lovers. I think the best partnerships marry intuition and practicality, excitement and placid evenings on the sofa, intimacy and reliability. I think this applies to romances, friendships and even business. My work needs to be like for me- I have to enjoy the excitement of passion but the comfort of the familiar too.
What I feel- Page of Wands. I feel excited by a message by something about which I am passionate. I feel entranced and re-energized by it.
What I do- Knight of Wands. This card made an appearance in my New Deck Interview with this deck, also in an advising position. This makes sense, because Knights do. That is one thing they can be relied on for, doing. It may not always be elegant, and it may not always be exactly as expected (or even wanted, those impetuous Knights) but they do do. I am glad to see a card of action here, because I often have a hard time with taking action. I can theorize and daydream all day long. I can plan and note and write it all out, but at some point the deeds must be done. I hear the call of adventure, and instead of snuggling back into warm sheets, I go after it.
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For this week I am using a simple three card spread- What I Think, What I Feel, What I Do.
What I think- the Hermit. The first several times I looked at this card, I for sure thought it was a younger man but with my glasses and a closer look I could see he is a bit grizzled. I too am a bit grizzled so that doesn’t take anything away for me. I think I am alone in the world, and I think I am okay with that most of the time. Not alone in the purest sense. There are plenty of people around me. I have a husband whom I adore, and who gives every sign of adoring me back, I have three kids and two stepkids, one still at home and I am a full time GiGi to a sweet little redheaded baby girl, and soon a little brown eyed boy. I have work that I love and a friendship or two. But mostly I think that aloneness is the human condition, and I don’t equate that with being lonely. Particularly as it relates to my family, I think I have some small degree of wisdom and make no bones about shoving it out there into the world, whether they want to hear my “wise” words or not. I am struggling at the moment with my middle son moving out. I wasn’t prepared and I’m not ready. I’m not sure he is prepared or ready but it’s his life to live and at a certain point motherly advice can start to sound like nagging.
What I feel- Ace of Pentacles. I feel very strongly that the world is one big bag of potential. All things are possible. All Aces carry the seed of possibility in them, but this Ace, the one that denotes abundance and physical work, especially conveys my feelings, which are that if I work hard enough and long enough I can achieve anything. One one hand, this is a good and true feeling that has helped me reach whatever small success I have. On the other hand, it can be a limiting belief because if hard work were the only measure of what it takes to be successful there would be no starving children in the world. Their mothers would do anything to care for them. Still, I cannot always control the result but I can always control my effort, and I prefer to have at least that semblance of control over my own destiny.
What I do- Ten of Pentacles. I work really, really hard. This relates back to what I think and what I feel, of course. It is a card devoid of human interaction, like the lone Hermit, and it is the culmination of that potential in the Ace. I want to both leave a legacy for those kids and grandbabies, and enjoy it now while I am here.
These cards are from the Prismatic Tarot. The images are subject to copyright and do not belong to me.
I am a little hung up on these cards and not quite sure where to go with this reading.
An effective but sometimes overlooked technique for dealing with a reading when you are just not sure exactly what the reading is telling you is to simply start describing the cards. There is no “right” or wrong answer when doing this, and by diving in (like our mermaid in the center card) we can quickly pull our associations with the cards from the depths of our subconscious. Since I believe that the meaning of the cards and the energy of the reading comes from within ourselves anyway, this is a perfect technique to read any spread.
My eye is first drawn to the mermiad’s sassy flick of her tail as she dives underneath the waves. We as humans need expensive gear and lessons to do what comes easily and naturally to her. Water is not the right medium to attempt a balancing act of the eight Cups, and instead of messing around with a game she knows she can’t win she has opted to nope right out of there and move onto something she can. We see her emerge to join the fox from the first card taking a turn yipping at The Moon. Foxes are wild and they hunt alone but they like living in packs. This makes me think of my family because our interests are diverse but we come together and it just works. Foxes are also creatures of the night, so it makes perfect sense for them to be moved by the moon while the mermaid is also called near.
So, this reading that I was having trouble with has become clear- Nothing matters more to me than my family, but the truth is that I am not a person who does well when I am forced to interact with others, even those I hold most dear. I need my solitary time, my alone time, to be wild in my thoughts and my dreams, to write and muse and dream, and it’s okay. My family needs their space too. This is a season for all of us to hold on loosely, confidant that our bonds are strong. We now have three kids no longer at home, and the two that remain are ridiculously busy with school, basketball, working, and cheer. My sweet husband and I are exceptionally busy right now. Instead of trying to force us into family time that ends up feeling like a burden to all of us I am going to trust my intuition this week to gently draw us together according to the rhythm of our lives and our needs.
These cards are from the ELLIS decK, which I purchased on Amazon. The Fool’s Dog, LLC has made a fully functional app complete with text which I also recommend.
Today I am using a spread provided by Lisa at angelorum.com, who promises the look at the month ahead spread is suitable for all abilities of reading the cards. This spread is unique in that it uses all Majors to answer the first question, Court Cards to answer the second part, and the Minor Arcana or pip cards to answer the third. Since it’s the start of a new week, I have not yet shuffled my deck of the week, The ELLIS decK, so it seemed like a great time to use the spread. If I were using a previously shuffled deck, I may be inclined to do it the lazy way and simply shuffle, draw until I had a Major, shuffle and draw until I had a court card, and a final shuffle looking for that pip. However you may choose to try the spread, it all works.
1. Major Arcana. Main developmental theme in the month ahead. You could get very specific in this area, which I find works best when I read for others, but I was just looking for the general feel.
2. Court Card. Best mental attitude to cultivate.
3. Minor Arcana. Action advice. This card, combined with the advice on which court card to personify, gives advice on navigating the main theme of the month.
The Simple Month Ahead Spread – May, 2017
1. Main developmental theme in the month ahead – The Tower. Here is where I almost noped right out of the reading and the whole new blog thing, because really, almost no one enjoys experiencing Tower phases of life, and my surly, placid, plodding Taurean nature especially abhors the sudden and drastic changes The Tower can bring. In my rational mind I know the Tower brings clarity more than calamity, and I know calamity can be avoided by not letting the Tower energy reach critical mass before I deal with the swirling energies surrounding it, but I still experience the cold chill of fear when I see the card, especially as a theme for the month.
2. Attitude to cultivate – Knight of Swords. I shall simply have to be a warrior as I face the month ahead. The Tower is no nonsense, doesn’t deal in deeper metaphor, and neither does the Knight of Swords. I shall have to be precise with my words and make clear, swift decisions. The Tower can be a bit of a nasty surprise, but the Knight of Swords is never taken unawares. And while he looks slightly grim, he also looks determined, and will not let fear or timidness make his decisions.
3. Action advice – Five of Pentacles. For a multitude of reasons, I put a lot of stock in feeling secure. Probably my nature was already skewed that way, and a hard scrabble childhood that included not really having “enough” and lots of upheaval cemented the trait for me. I feel best when there is money in the bank, food in the pantry, and I know where I am going to be for the next several months. For someone who holds these things so dear, as an adult I have not always been able to keep them close. It’s important for me to understand that material lack does not equal spiritual lack, and that only one of them really matters. One of the defining characteristics of this card for me, is that the figures are so downtrodden that they do not see the Pentacles above them. They don’t look up so they don’t see any other way to be. But forewarned is forearmed, and I can look up. I can experience a tumultuous moment in life without losing the rest of the pieces of the puzzle, and I can remain cool, calm, and collected when under pressure.
This deck is The ELLIS decK by Taylor Ellis. I purchased it on Amazon. It is also available as a fully functional app, complete with text and interactive readings, from The Fool’s Dog, LLC.