What I think- Nine of Swords. Obviously, I have been thinking far too much and now I have gotten myself all riled up. Maybe I can do something about this and maybe I can’t, but being all twisted emotionally has prevented me from taking actionable steps and has stolen the peace I need if this is just to be. Half of these swords are real and half are just shadows, and I think I have pushed it too far and can no longer tell the difference.
What I feel- Three of Swords. My back hurts. It physically hurts. It will never be fully well again, although sometimes I manage okay with it.
What I do- Lovers. Since I can’t change a thing with my worry and since the physical pain is just a burden I have to bear, I lean into it all. I can’t change anything with my worry, so I lean into the circumstances. I can’t stop my pain so I stop struggling with it. Come, if you will, or go if you will, pain. You are not my enemy.
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What I think- King of Cups. I think I want to learn more astrology, both for my own edification and to add value to the readings I do for others.
What I feel- Sun. I feel great! I snuggle babies all day and I get to bring a sweet one home with me at night. I love this life and I feel blessed to have it. I feel happy and optimistic about the future.
What I do- The World. Do I take up hoop dancing? I have always wanted to do that but I am about as un-graceful as they come and I feel foolish trying.
These images are from Prismatic Tarot and are subject to copyright, which I do not own.
What I think- Page of Swords. I think it is better to stay silent in some circumstances, and even though I think that is a good option, I often struggle with exercising it. I have met very few words I didn’t want to say. I think I am naked and vulnerable but the tilt of the hips says I am not too bothered by it.
What I feel- Nine of Wands. I feel defensive, like I need to take a stand. I feel like I need to protect myself and those close to me. I feel like this is “mine” and I won’t let it be harmed. Sometimes I feel like the lone soldier standing between destruction and wholeness.
What I do- Nine of Cups. Whatever, let’s just have a glass of wine or three. Probably due to what I think and feel, I now feel comfortable and safe enough to let my guard down a little bit and I relax with what I feel I have earned. Tonight that is a soak and a tea and a good book, a pat of a puppy, and those are all I really want in life anyway.
These images are from Prismatic Tarot and are subject to copyright, which I do not own.
What I think- Lovers. I think the best partnerships marry intuition and practicality, excitement and placid evenings on the sofa, intimacy and reliability. I think this applies to romances, friendships and even business. My work needs to be like for me- I have to enjoy the excitement of passion but the comfort of the familiar too.
What I feel- Page of Wands. I feel excited by a message by something about which I am passionate. I feel entranced and re-energized by it.
What I do- Knight of Wands. This card made an appearance in my New Deck Interview with this deck, also in an advising position. This makes sense, because Knights do. That is one thing they can be relied on for, doing. It may not always be elegant, and it may not always be exactly as expected (or even wanted, those impetuous Knights) but they do do. I am glad to see a card of action here, because I often have a hard time with taking action. I can theorize and daydream all day long. I can plan and note and write it all out, but at some point the deeds must be done. I hear the call of adventure, and instead of snuggling back into warm sheets, I go after it.
These images are from Prismatic Tarot and are under copyright, which I do not own.
For this week I am using a simple three card spread- What I Think, What I Feel, What I Do.
What I think- the Hermit. The first several times I looked at this card, I for sure thought it was a younger man but with my glasses and a closer look I could see he is a bit grizzled. I too am a bit grizzled so that doesn’t take anything away for me. I think I am alone in the world, and I think I am okay with that most of the time. Not alone in the purest sense. There are plenty of people around me. I have a husband whom I adore, and who gives every sign of adoring me back, I have three kids and two stepkids, one still at home and I am a full time GiGi to a sweet little redheaded baby girl, and soon a little brown eyed boy. I have work that I love and a friendship or two. But mostly I think that aloneness is the human condition, and I don’t equate that with being lonely. Particularly as it relates to my family, I think I have some small degree of wisdom and make no bones about shoving it out there into the world, whether they want to hear my “wise” words or not. I am struggling at the moment with my middle son moving out. I wasn’t prepared and I’m not ready. I’m not sure he is prepared or ready but it’s his life to live and at a certain point motherly advice can start to sound like nagging.
What I feel- Ace of Pentacles. I feel very strongly that the world is one big bag of potential. All things are possible. All Aces carry the seed of possibility in them, but this Ace, the one that denotes abundance and physical work, especially conveys my feelings, which are that if I work hard enough and long enough I can achieve anything. One one hand, this is a good and true feeling that has helped me reach whatever small success I have. On the other hand, it can be a limiting belief because if hard work were the only measure of what it takes to be successful there would be no starving children in the world. Their mothers would do anything to care for them. Still, I cannot always control the result but I can always control my effort, and I prefer to have at least that semblance of control over my own destiny.
What I do- Ten of Pentacles. I work really, really hard. This relates back to what I think and what I feel, of course. It is a card devoid of human interaction, like the lone Hermit, and it is the culmination of that potential in the Ace. I want to both leave a legacy for those kids and grandbabies, and enjoy it now while I am here.
These cards are from the Prismatic Tarot. The images are subject to copyright and do not belong to me.
There are many versions of this spread floating around the ‘net- basically a way to get your cards out and start a conversation. I want to say that I do not think the cards themselves have any sentience, although others will disagree and that’s fine! Maybe yours do. I believe that these questions are answered by our reactions to the images of the cards, and learning to examine and harness those feelings is valuable to me.
My original spread probably came from the now defunct Aeclectic Tarot Forum, which is now read only. I myself had stopped participating in the forum years before it closed, and it was not such a loss to me as it was to others, but it certainly was a great resource for discussion if you agreed with the mods and were okay with censoring and bashing depending on the mood of the mods at the moment (but that is getting into my personal issues with a forum that can never be addressed). Sad for some, but in the current climate of social media and blogging, and with the rise of other forums to take its’ place, there are still many ways to connect.
This week I am using the Prismatic Tarot, a self published deck available on etsy. It was previously known as the Illuminated Tarot and enjoyed a successful Kickstarter campaign to bring it to life. I imagine the name may have been changed to avoid confusion with other decks of the same name. It is also available on iOS and Android as a superb app, complete with definitions.
Tell me about yourself- what is your most important characteristic? I pulled the Queen of Wands for this position. This is a strong deck, unapologetic, one that appeals to baser instincts and demands a reverence to the crown chakra and third eye opening.
What are your strengths as a deck? Two of Wands- Vision, courage, clarity.
What are your limits as a deck? Three of Cups- This actually speaks to my limits as a reader. Self control, self sabotage. The deck can’t fix these things for me. I have to control myself and I have to keep my plans on the rails.
What are you here to teach me? Eight of Pentacles- I will have new opportunities to practice my skills and hone my abilities. This seems particularly apt as I return to blogging after a long hiatus.
How can I best learn from you? Knight of Wands- be passionate, be present in each moment. Don’t accept the face value, but look for the deeper meaning. This card relates back perfectly to the highlighted third eye of the Queen of Wands, the defining characteristic of this deck.
What is the potential of our working relationship? The Devil- I will be able to see the bonds I allow myself to live in, if I am brave, and if I am willing to see them. Like the Three of Cups as limits, the deck cannot do the work for me, and if I don’t show up there is no chance for healing. I am ready to stop only existing through my days and really be in them, like the Knight of Wands, the advising card, and so that is what I must do. If I fail, which in this instance would be a choice, then I am allowing myself to remain in bondage, to my bad habits, to my poor choice in the words I say to myself. On one hand, it is easy to say, Oh it’s just blogging, it is no big deal, and you are going too deep with it. On the other, not blogging has left a void in my heart and I want to do it, yet somehow I find ways not to. This is the cycle of Resistance.
I was initially drawn to the clean lines and retro coloring of the deck, and the borderless feature tends to be one of my favorites. I missed the original Kickstarter, and had the deck as an app before purchasing a physical copy. I must say, it is stunning in digital form, and so convenient for use on the fly.
Thank you for joining me on the next leg of my journey! I hope you will be back to see what the Prismatic Tarot has to whisper to me this week.
These images are subject to copyright and I do not own them.
Today I am using a spread provided by Lisa at angelorum.com, who promises the look at the month ahead spread is suitable for all abilities of reading the cards. This spread is unique in that it uses all Majors to answer the first question, Court Cards to answer the second part, and the Minor Arcana or pip cards to answer the third. Since it’s the start of a new week, I have not yet shuffled my deck of the week, The ELLIS decK, so it seemed like a great time to use the spread. If I were using a previously shuffled deck, I may be inclined to do it the lazy way and simply shuffle, draw until I had a Major, shuffle and draw until I had a court card, and a final shuffle looking for that pip. However you may choose to try the spread, it all works.
1. Major Arcana. Main developmental theme in the month ahead. You could get very specific in this area, which I find works best when I read for others, but I was just looking for the general feel.
2. Court Card. Best mental attitude to cultivate.
3. Minor Arcana. Action advice. This card, combined with the advice on which court card to personify, gives advice on navigating the main theme of the month.
The Simple Month Ahead Spread – May, 2017
1. Main developmental theme in the month ahead – The Tower. Here is where I almost noped right out of the reading and the whole new blog thing, because really, almost no one enjoys experiencing Tower phases of life, and my surly, placid, plodding Taurean nature especially abhors the sudden and drastic changes The Tower can bring. In my rational mind I know the Tower brings clarity more than calamity, and I know calamity can be avoided by not letting the Tower energy reach critical mass before I deal with the swirling energies surrounding it, but I still experience the cold chill of fear when I see the card, especially as a theme for the month.
2. Attitude to cultivate – Knight of Swords. I shall simply have to be a warrior as I face the month ahead. The Tower is no nonsense, doesn’t deal in deeper metaphor, and neither does the Knight of Swords. I shall have to be precise with my words and make clear, swift decisions. The Tower can be a bit of a nasty surprise, but the Knight of Swords is never taken unawares. And while he looks slightly grim, he also looks determined, and will not let fear or timidness make his decisions.
3. Action advice – Five of Pentacles. For a multitude of reasons, I put a lot of stock in feeling secure. Probably my nature was already skewed that way, and a hard scrabble childhood that included not really having “enough” and lots of upheaval cemented the trait for me. I feel best when there is money in the bank, food in the pantry, and I know where I am going to be for the next several months. For someone who holds these things so dear, as an adult I have not always been able to keep them close. It’s important for me to understand that material lack does not equal spiritual lack, and that only one of them really matters. One of the defining characteristics of this card for me, is that the figures are so downtrodden that they do not see the Pentacles above them. They don’t look up so they don’t see any other way to be. But forewarned is forearmed, and I can look up. I can experience a tumultuous moment in life without losing the rest of the pieces of the puzzle, and I can remain cool, calm, and collected when under pressure.
This deck is The ELLIS decK by Taylor Ellis. I purchased it on Amazon. It is also available as a fully functional app, complete with text and interactive readings, from The Fool’s Dog, LLC.